Monday, December 10, 9:49 PM
How?
I'm confused. When i'm happy and high for no reason, you get mad at me and when i'm all moody, you start thinking that it's your fault i'm like that and start apologising a zillion times, which will eventually get me irritated. Which side of me do you want, really. Everyday, we get into arguements that are so minor and childish that i don't think children nowadays would even argue about. We get worked up for no apparent reason. It's starting to tire me down and i guess our arguements are going to be the death of me one day, if i give up, which i don't even want to think about because i'm not going to. It's getting really hard for me to think of the good old times when all i can think of is to find a solution for us to stop our stupid habit.
To hear your voice call my name makes me go gaga. Don't think that i only answer you when you call me by name when we're arguing because i'm angry at you. The fact is that i love hearing you call my name and it soothes me when we're arguing. I don't even know why, so don't ask. Everytime i even think of suicide due to certain reasons, i'd smile and say, "Who'll take care of you if i were to do something stupid to myself." You know, you're the reason i'm really happy and looking on the brighter side, the reason i try so hard to be optimistic towards my life, the reason i'm staying here even though the grass on the other side is greener. It doesn't really matter to me if we argue for awhile and then get back to good terms because what is a relationship without disgreements? What is a relationship without jealousy?
I love you so much because you taught me the true meaning of happiness, contentment. Even if it's about religion. You share so much of your knowledge to me. To think of it, you contributed so much of my life. You told me never to compare myself with others but how can i not do that?