right, lets not get distracted, suhaira. the main point is, my secret terbongkar. k not exactly terbongkar, but something like that. i told him my secret and now i feel threatened *faints* *stands up* *think* *faints again* hahahhaa. not funny. lame. not really threatened cause i trust him. no, not trust, trusted. no, i think i still trust him. but not fully. so does that mean i still trust him or dont? hmmm. *thinks deeply* ahhh, yes. i still trust him.

but hes the first person to know about this and i think ive made a mistake. a big one. no, huge. no gigantic! like, i shouldnt have told anyone, including him. i didnt even tell syiqs. and in case you dont know, ive known syiqs longer than him. i just had to be a dumbdumb. i called syiqs up last night, sobbing macam suckeroonie. syiqs comforted me. aw. i love her. although ive been friends with her for only a year, shes the first girlfriend whom i trusted so much.

eh serious. i think i go off point real easy. ah, pray for my english o levels oral and compo. if i go off point then might as well pancung kepala k siti suhaira. or maybe, i dont know. like first, stop angan-angan nak jadi air stewardess. confirm tak dapat uh. but i want. i want to be on an aeroplane. i want to say.. "blablabla" i dont know what they say but ill just say w/e they're supposed to say. but the girl from adam khoo, candace, told us that theres no justifications or w/e it is. ive got to learn that there shall be no justifications before i even dream about being an air stewardess. muka aja cannot make it sia nak jadi air stewardess. ahhh, perut juga -.-

serious uh. perut stop it sia. boncettt. im not exaggerating. you should ask my family or maybe saiful/wira/mak/bapak/makunchu/maklong/malaydancers/syiqs/lufee/whoever. kena sit ups uh sit ups! and jogging. oooooh! lets go jogging next week. jog jog jog dekat padang depan rumah. idc uh, alone pun jadi. so, kalau malas bangun morning, boleh cancel ikut suka hati -.- haaaaaa

and i really think this friendship band with syiqs on my leg betulbetul buat anak derhaka or something, syiqs kata her mom said so. syiqs! mulut masin eh! *slap your face, slam you stumpy fingers and kick you butt*? (Y) but its not about katakata what right, its about me. its about how i want to be, how i choose behave and yada yada. so suhaira, start behaving eh.

sekarang apa ehhhhh. oh lets talk about studies. im afraid of my o levels. i doubt i'll study hard, but i still have to. i need to have confidence after those papers and before i get my results so i can enjoy my long break and party -.- k not party. not party. ahhh, enjoy my long break and go crazy and not party? i guess.

anyway, ah chee texted. he said most probably, i'll be getting mrs p as my fnn teacher. he thought it was bad news for me -.- i like mrs p better. english nya pekattt; i like! shes better than miss h cause unlike miss h, shes not biased. and ah chee's out with his family. best eh, sunday family day. i dont have family days on sundays. loser.

ah, gtg. i wanna do sit ups -.- no, of course not. im kidding